Words not fitly spoken to me have been sitting in my belly for many years and I cannot erase them from my memory.
When I heard her say them, I was already feeling shaken, discouraged and dismayed by a Dr.’s report.
When she said the words aloud to me, my heart plummeted to my feet and I felt the heaviness of despair settle over me.
She spoke of God healing…through my fasting…said ‘it depends how bad you want it.’
How could my fasting help when my faith had seemed so strong and ready to receive…only to not?
Her words, not spoken unkindly or harshly were not fitly spoken words…
…but these same words have been the catalyst igniting a fire in my belly. I chose to be unoffended by them and the fire they ignited is burning away the dross in my heart and leaving me with the Truth, the gold of God’s Word!
He overlays our hearts with gold when the lie is discovered and discarded.
Fasting does not break off the old habits of our old nature and fasting does not heal our bodies. Fasting is an invitation to intimacy with the King.
A King who is Sovereign, Just and Kind, a King who holds time, controls time and all my times are in His hands.
How could my fasting heal me? How much effort would be required in the fast? Would it be good enough? Would I fast long enough? All questions I never found the answer to as a sense of inadequacy trumped and fear of my own failure settled in.
Today…today, my glimpse of Truth is greater…today I clearly see the Blood of Jesus poured out for my forgiveness, my emotional and physical healing. The power of the Blood of Jesus has healed already; it triumphs over my inability to fast. Its power is far greater than my puny strength.
The times I fast are those sweet times of communion with Him. The King who is all glorious and loves me with a wild unashamed love. The power of His love transforms my broken places. The Blood and Love of Jesus are a potent, powerhouse mix and the time of fasting is providing an encounter with my King.
The question ‘how bad did I want the healing’, now has become ‘ how hungry, how desperate am I for God’s presence, how much do I long to sense that tangible, heavy weight of His glory round about me?’
I may not be a recipient of the manifestation of healing for my ears…but I have received ‘ears of the heart’ that hear clearly.
Truth transforms our hearts. Truth reveals the lie and teaches us how to live fasted lives before the King all the days of our lives. When we live fasted lives with hearts knit to His He promises in Isaiah 58:8 ‘Our healing shall rise speedily.’’
When we are in His beautiful and awesome Presence, time, as we know it slips away, fades away in the light of His glory and amazing grace.
Will you ask the King to uproot any lies you are believing; ask Him to transform you as you align your hearts to His truth?
Walking with you and the King in the Light of His presence,