Have you ever had those life experiences when one day everything is going great and you appreciate all that you have to be thankful for…only to be walloped unexpectedly? We have. Since March of 2012, life has been full of wallops, but I am learning that even in those times of walloping, I can give thanks.
Today Jesus is our only stability; He is our treasure and our wisdom and from Him comes knowledge and understanding. To fear God is the key to this treasure.
Today, I am aware of the need to make the fear of the Lord much greater than my fear of cancer. I must magnify His unchanging nature above our circumstances. He knows exactly what is going on in our lives, His mighty right hand stills holds us; we are certainly not letting go!
Day by day, He bears our burdens. Day by day each one of us has the opportunity to learn to allow Jesus to bear our burdens and trust Him to get us through our difficulties.
I must bring to mind His Word when I am tempted to get anxious and remember that our times are in His hands. I choose to not give in to the temptation of anxiety and worry. I think this is key for me to stay strong for my husband.
Anxiety, worry, and fear are all temptations – the same as temptation to overeat, get drunk, commit adultery – do you hear what I am saying? I will no sooner give in to those temptations (which actually are not at all for me, so maybe shopping…) therefore; I will not give in to allowing myself to be all worried and anxious. I am making a point of not going shopping because I recognize it would be emotional shopping!
I am processing the normal, natural emotions of a wife who loves her husband and has learned he has prostate cancer. I welcome any godly insight from those who have or are experiencing the same situation…please feel free to comment. Please also, feel free to pray for us.
July 11th, Bruce has a consult with a Radiologist at the Cross Cancer Institute in Edmonton, Alberta.
In the meantime, I am going to set myself in a place where I am able to understand and learn the fear of the Lord and magnify His Name above prostate cancer. I just want to draw away and spend heart to heart time with my Beloved.
To grow in loving Him with my whole heart and to experience the casting out of all fear.
I can hear the thunder rumbling in the distance and pray that I will hear His Voice just as clearly.
I can hear the thunder in the distance and I am going to lay my burdens down.
Psalm 119:116-117 Uphold Bruce according to Your Word, that he may live; do not let us be ashamed of our hope. Hold us up, and we shall be safe and we shall observe Your law of love continually.