How Our Lives Change When our Hearts Choose Forgiveness

Thoughtful Thursday ~ Beckoned by the King 

I heard His Voice last night through the grace filled words of an elderly man as he gently spoke of the power of forgiveness.

For most of his adulthood, he and his family was the subject of terrible injustices.  He spoke softly, tears filling his kind blue eyes and yet with the authority of one who had experienced what he was sharing.

His words described how everyday he had to make a choice to deny his flesh the revenge it sought.  He chose to keep the words of the One he loved and often sought Him with all his heart, with every fibre of his being crying out for the grace of God to overtake and envelope him.

The words are blurry and I cry now because I realize I had not understood the depth of his journey, the incredible intimacy of his walk with Jesus.

He lived the words of Psalm 119: 57-58

“You are my portion, O Lord; I have said that I would keep Your words.  I entreated Your favor with my whole heart; be merciful to me according to Your word.”

He lived within the boundaries of love.

He knew when Jesus said, ‘take up your cross and follow me’, it was exactly what he would do.  He stalwartly shouldered that cross as it cut great gouges in his flesh and hurt his soul, and he walked the journey following Jesus all the way.

The road of forgiveness was the road he walked.  Open heart willing to love and lend a helping hand to others; yet being shut down and silenced by those he was in community with.  How could he bear such injustice?

He was not dropping the cross God had called him to carry.  He did not weaken or lose faith under such a heavy burden ~ I surely would have.

He explained denying himself the ravages of a torn soul and hurting heart and how loving with all his heart allowed him to see Jesus clearly.

He saw how Jesus had denied His flesh, ignored that great crying out to have the burden of the crucifixion pass from Him.  He saw how Jesus forgave all men the grossness of their sin and marked the road to Calvary with His blood.  Forgiveness and healing for us found in every drop.

My friend forgave those who had hurt him so deeply.   He shared how one by one the Lord brought the injustices and the people who had caused them to his memory and asked him, ‘what about this one?’

Always his answer was ‘yes, this one too, Lord, I forgive.’  His face shone as he spoke those words.  His eyes radiated great depths of love and I know he forgave me too.

In listening to the words of this kind, godly man, I know I heard these words lived out:

I thought about my ways, and turned my feet to Your testimonies.  I made haste and did not delay to keep Your commandments.  The cords of the wicked have bound me, but I have not forgotten Your law.  Psalm 119: 59-61

Beloved, will you remember to keep His love law when you are hurt too?  Will you turn quickly from the injustice and do that which my friend did, what Jesus did?

I open my heart and stretch wide my arms and say, “Father, I choose to forgive in the name of Jesus.  If they knew what they were doing they wouldn’t do it, so I forgive, fully and freely in Jesus name.”

Do you feel the exhilaration of freedom, of a heart unbound?

Will you testify of His goodness by leaving a comment?  I would love to hear of how God has blessed your heart and to know you too have found the freedom only forgiveness can bring to our souls.

With humble heart,

Listening for His heart, Jeannie Pallett

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When We Have an Accurate Perception of the Conception of Jesus

When we have an accurate perception of the conception of Jesus, why He came and the salvation He longs for us to walk in; truth begins to take root in our innermost being.

He loves us riotously, with great joy and we are the apple of His eye!

He rejoices over us, dances with us.  Can you see Him twirling around; can you catch the twinkle in His eye as He reaches His arms out to you?

We are beloved, delighted in, provided for and protected.  We are heirs to His kingdom; He is abounding towards us with grace, goodness and mercy.

He wants to lavish and ravish us with love.  Pure, holy love.

Jesus came to set us free.  From sin and false perceptions because when we know Jesus we know Truth and Truth sets us free from false perceptions!

The lies of the enemy reproach us.   They come to us in many different ways but the result is the same.    False perceptions fill our hearts and our minds; our hearts and soul become bound by false perceptions.  Their purpose is to cripple us.

We must bind ourselves to Truth, to straightness, to Jesus the Rod of Jesse.

Fear is an unwelcome neighbor who thinks he can come around and scare you just because cancer has been in your life.  In the late summer I became fearful of what Bruce’s next PSA test would be and instead of going straight to Jesus, those fears began to simmer.  Instead of removing them from the stove, I let them simmer!  How crazy is that!

Fear led me down the road and introduced me to comparison.  Comparison showed me how much I lacked.  Condemnation was not far behind and I could hear his lies telling me I was not any good and my gifts from God really were not useful, practical or even wanted.

And in the natural, my knees began to hurt.  And they hurt more as the weeks went by and my unwelcome friends were still hanging around.

Jesus, now He is the friend who sticks closer than a brother does.  He showed me in His word where Psalm 119: 42 says, “So I will have an answer for him who reproaches me, for I trust in your word.”

He showed me how the spirits of comparison, condemnation and fear were at work in my life ~ hence the sore knees and difficulty walking.

He gave me a dream from which I woke up and said aloud, ‘Comparison is a crippling spirit!|’ Psalm 119:45 says, ‘and I will walk at liberty for I seek your precepts. I am not crippled.  In the natural and the spiritual I walk free.”  He showed me the Living Water is pouring into my tent and in the River of Life our tents have holes in them so the Water can run free and we are all refreshed and built up in Him.

Comparison is a crippling spirit.  Comparison steals our joy.  Comparison cripples us and disables us from walking in God’s best for OUR lives.  But God.  But God has empowered, enabled and equipped us!

Comparison gives us ‘side-ways eyes’.  Those eyes cause us to wander from the truths of God’s Word and eternal promises.  They keep on showing us the lie.

Comparison cripples us because in measuring ourselves against people, we are drained of our confidence in the promises of God.

Comparison walks hand in hand with condemnation and as crippling spirits, their mandate is to knock us down at the KNEES and make us feel inadequate and incapable of walking in God’s promises for our life.

Comparison is a joy stealer and a contentment robber.

Psalm 119: 42 “So I will have an answer for him who reproaches me, for I trust in your word.”

Condemnation and comparison reproach don’t they!  They want to cripple our spirits so we are unable to walk at liberty.  Comparison and condemnation tell us we aren’t good enough, we don’t have anything of value to offer.  Comparison plays the numbers game and is quick to point out the differences.

You know how we can throw a stone into water and the water ripples, spreading into ever widening circles?  One question asked of the Lord and answered by Him has that same expanding ripple effect.

One answered question can unlock doors of the heart and freedom is invited to enter and roam free.

My heart has echoed the words of the psalmist in Psalm 119:4 May your loving kindnesses also come to me, O Lord, Your salvation according to Your word.

HIS reply?  “I have come with healing in My wings; I have come with mercies new every day, dawning as the Sun of Righteousness.  Each new day is ripe with rich opportunities to trust Me.  You know how you can throw a stone into water and the water ripples, spreading into ever widening circles?  One question asked of Me and answered by Me has that same expanding ripple effect.  I have brought you into a place of freedom”

One answered question unlocks doors of the heart; we invite freedom to enter and we walk free and at liberty.

(Oh!  And PS – Once again Bruce’s PSA was less than 0.01.   That number equates to being cancer free! Praise the Mighty Name of Jesus.  And praise the Mighty Name of Jesus, my knees no longer hurt and I can run and skip down the stairs and dance to praise music once again!!!)

Listening for His heart, Jeannie Pallett

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She Crashed His Dinner Party and Showed Him the Way to Freedom

I remember the day I invited Jesus to dinner just as if it were yesterday.  For a long time I thought I might never forget the shame I experienced that night, but His love has overridden those feelings.

Oh, how I was longing for freedom.  To be free from the confines of the Box of Rules I lived in.  Most people didn’t understand how I lived at that address for so many years. But I didn’t know any other way then.

The Rules couldn’t settle and bring peace to my heart.  The Rules, they never made me laugh. I rarely smiled and wasn’t even sure if I knew what it meant to be happy.  Genuinely, joyfully happy!  Like she was. The Rules constrained me, not to mention the stiff upper lips of all the other Pharisees who lived at the same address.

I can’t speak for them though.  I can and will only speak for myself.

As much as I was constrained by rules, the power of love compelled me that day I invited Jesus to dinner.  As soon as my lips issued the invitation, my mind went into top gear to create the perfect dinner reception.

I wanted it to be a memorable occasion.  You see, my heart was screaming “freedom” from inside the Box of Rules.  I had seen the miracles happen at the hand of Jesus and I couldn’t stand the Box anymore.

I had watched as Jesus spat on the dirt and rolled it into a patty of mud between those strong, brown hands of His.  I could hardly believe my own eyes when I saw Him pat the patty on the blind man’s eyes and tell him to go wash in the pool of Siloam.

The blind man, well he made his way to the pool and then he went home seeing for the first time in his life.

It was the Centurion’s story that touched my heart in a way I didn’t understand.

His servant was very ill and the Centurion very calmly told Jesus all He needs to do was speak the word and he knew his servant would be healed.  The Centurion’s faith impressed Jesus. I was impressed when I heard the servant became well that very hour.

So, I invited Jesus to dinner in response to an irresistible urging in my heart.  I wanted to talk to Him, really talk to Him, man to man.  I felt that He could help me to break free from the Box of Rules.  I didn’t want to live there anymore but had no idea how to leave.

I wanted; no, I craved inner freedom.  I longed to break open the rigid exterior that was mine.  See, it’s not just a bad reputation that tells everyone you’re living a sinful life.

When you’re a Pharisee though, and you are living your life from inside the Box of Rules, it’s easy to point fingers.  It’s easy to judge others as lesser when the outside part of your own life looks good.

What I did that night I will never forget.  To my shame, I was so ruled by tradition; I completely neglected extending courtesies common to the day.  Why, I didn’t even have water to wash the dusty feet of Jesus, and I was too uptight to greet Him with a kiss. My self-consciousness always ruled over my emotions and it seemed I could never express what was in my heart.

My dinner party seemed perfect.  The guests were there, the food was superb and Jesus looked like He was enjoying Himself.  Then, she came.  She came unannounced and uninvited.  She crashed my party.

Little did I know but she was the one who showed me how to enter into the fullness of joy.

She came with her bad reputation, her alabaster jar filled with beautiful perfume. Her presence filled the atmosphere and I watched, aghast as she poured out the perfume on His feet. She wept. She wiped the feet of Jesus with her hair. Tender love in every action.  Oh, I hated to think of how she learned to have no consciousness of self.

As much as I hated her freedom and show of love right here in my house, at my dinner party, her actions highlighted the desire in my heart to break out from this house of rules, religion and tradition.

What did I do? In all my prickliness, I called attention to her lifestyle. As if, Jesus didn’t already know!  Then, He called attention to mine.

To the very thing, I wanted to be free from.  Freedom from self-consciousness.  Freedom from the rules that kept my heart bound up in a tight, cold, hard ball, tucked away in the darkest corner of the Box.

I wanted to break free and be as unabashed in the sharing of my love for Jesus as she was.  We came from two opposite worlds but I saw that day, we were the same as we lived our lives of sin.  It didn’t matter that our sin was manifest in different ways.  We were sinners and Jesus had as much power to forgive our sin and change our hearts as He had the power to heal.

She and the other guests left, it was just Jesus and me.  He heard the silent screams of my heart and understood the unspoken longing.

Just one touch is all it took.  One fiery touch, hot liquid lovelava coursed through my veins.  Melted the ice around my heart, wiped away the cold inner veneer.  I became conscious only of Him.  I could feel His gaze piercing my heart and soul as He searched the deepest and darkest places in me.

My dinner party? Well, it became a private search and rescue party.  That night, even though I was too self-conscious to give Jesus a simple kiss, that night, He rescued me, unlocked me from the Box of Rules.

Healing ran through my body.  His words renewed my mind.  I knew I was free.  I was as free as she was.  I was free to love Jesus and I knew He would help me learn to express my heart for Him.

I had a picture in my mind and I could feel it too.  His hands lifted the corners of the Box of Rules.  Light entered.  The ropes of religion, tradition and rules were keeping me bound.  One knot after another, Jesus untied.  I could feel every place His fingers touched me as He untied the rope.  I stood unbound and free, a pile of tangled rope at my feet when Jesus gave me His hand.  Oh, yes, I quivered as I thought about the mud, the power in His touch and spoken word.

I thought about my heart, about her heart.  You see, just looking at me, you might not have guessed, but I was as much in need of salvation and freedom as she was!

Just goes to show you, we never can tell the condition of someone else’s heart just by looking at them.

I was never the same after that night.  I moved to a different address and made it a point to open my home to people from all occupations.  I embrace them, speak words of graciousness and I have learned to look beyond, far beyond myself. It is with joy I anticipate and prepare for the needs of others so I am ready to meet whatever need may arise.

I have learned to untie knots, unwrap grave cloths.  I have learned to allow the healing power of Jesus to flow through me as I surrender to Him. I know it is He who touches you through me.

Surrendering to the power and authority of His Word has freed me to become like Him.  In Him, I have incredible freedom and joy unspeakable, uncontainable!  She, who was a woman of shame, introduced me to freedom, love, joy and peace.  Who would have thought!

Oh, my new address?  It is the House of Mercy.                                                                  When we cross the River and meet our Blessed Savior

I would love to meet you there, kneeling at His feet.

Listening for His heart, Jeannie Pallett

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The Divine Hand of God

This is the book that has radically changed my heart.

I learned last month from Serge that I had WON IT and I believe with all my heart that it was the divine hand of God moving on my behalf.

To share a little bit more of me with you, I am married to Bruce, a man full of incredible love, incredible love, and incredible love.  He is patient, kind, thoughtful, the living epitome of the love chapter in 1 Corinthians 13.  He is happy, joyous, carefree and sensitive to people and the heart of God.  He treats me like a queen.

I on the other hand have been known to get extremely angry with him, extremely lose my temper and my cool.  Cool it is not, grieving to God and to us.  For ages, Bruce has asked me to seek the Father and find out the root of my anger.  So I have been.  It has been quiet.

Sometimes God speaks when it is silent, He is often moving in the silence and moving on my behalf is exactly what He has been doing.

Back to the book…when it arrived I loved the look of it and read two chapters.  With all the emotional upheaval that has been transpiring lately it was hard for me to settle in and read.  God had a plan that was in action.

June 13, 2012 I felt desperate, wondering if I should seek prayer counseling, anything to understand my crazy angry outbursts.  That evening I stayed up later and started in on Chapter 3.

The divine hand of God opened the eyes of my heart and these are the words, some paraphrased and made personal that changed my heart. I believe they will change all hearts because the truths are eternal.

“We must be quick to forgive and to do so completely, which means a) to excuse a fault, b) to absolve the faulty person from payment.

Both actions are necessary.  Otherwise, if I excuse the fault, but I still want Bruce to pay for the hurt he caused (unknowingly) me, then I will not experience the freedom and joy that comes with complete forgiveness.

If I keep practising incomplete forgiveness, layer upon layer of anger and resentment will pile up in my heart.  Layer upon layer of anger and resentment have piled up in my heart, hence the outburst of anger.  I have always told Bruce I forgive him, but I always add, “Please don’t do that again”

The world tells us that we should only forgive if the person regrets what he did, repents, makes a payment for the hurt he caused and makes a genuine attempt not to repeat the wrong again.

This sounds great, but what happens when the other person is not willing to do all that?  Then we are left in a bitter prison.  This is why the Bible advises us to forgive quickly and completely, even when the other person does not ask for forgiveness.  The Bible instructs us to trust God for repayment.

Talk about being blindsided!  If I look at myself, I know I cannot promise I will not repeat the wrong again…and I was expecting that of my husband and not myself?  Hmm.  Thank God for His grace and mercy!

Too often, I have allowed minor offenses to take a foothold in my heart.  These footholds have become a stronghold in my life.  These minor offenses have made me lose my joy, feel depressed and feel unfairly treated.  Forgiving means that I choose to no longer be concerned and negatively affected by the offense.  Forgiveness prevents that from taking a foothold in my heart and mind.  I must stop remembering it and stop holding onto it.

“Father, I choose, June 13, 2012, 9:23 pm to forgive Bruce completely in the Name of Jesus.”

“Guilt often pushes us to ask for forgiveness.  It helps purge bad toxins away from our conscience.”  I must ask for forgiveness and the guilt feelings will go.  When guilt lingers the renewing of the mind slows down.  Why?  Because I will suffer from guilt complexes, become bitter, fret and agonize continually over feelings of guilt, not feeling worthy or berate myself.

Instead of being healthy – and bringing us to complete forgiveness, guilt can rapidly become destructive if we let it linger in our minds.  It can drive us to breakdown, depression, and make us ill…

Jesus has already paid in full what I owe; thereby I can be free of feelings of lingering guilt.

I must go to Bruce and ask for forgiveness.

I have been drinking dead water.  It is time once more to drink from the fountain of living waters so that blessing continually comes out of my mouth.

Is there anybody else out there who can relate to the truths here?

The divine hand of God…the heart of God rejoicing…will you enter the fullness of His joy and take whatever practical steps you need in order to experience the freedom, love and joy He longs for you?

I know my heart has been radically changed simply because the hand of God is divine!

 With you in His Palm

Jeannie Pallett

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The Lessons Learned

Heth ~ the Hebrew alphabet letter at the beginning of Psalm 119:57-64  ~ the symbolic meaning of this letter is a picture of an enclosure, fence or hedge.  Oh, how we each need to learn to live within this hedge of protection.

The Lord is my portion, I have promised to keep Your words,

I sought Your favor with all my heart; be gracious to me according to Your Word.

I considered my ways and turned my feet to Your testimonies.

I hastened and did not delay to keep Your commandments.

The cords of the wicked have encircled me, but I have not forgotten Your law.

At midnight I will rise and give thanks to You because of Your righteous ordinances.

I am a companion of all those who fear You, and of those who keep Your precepts.

The earth is full of Your lovingkindness, O Lord; teach me Your statutes.

Recently, I was perusing some things in my circle of responsibility and realized with chagrin, that I had gone beyond the boundaries that had been set.

I quickly sensed that instead of feeling guilty and thinking the “oh no, thoughts, what am I going to do” the wisest thing was to simply repent.

Repent, because wholeheartedly I desire to go the opposite direction and set the compass of my heart so it focuses clearly on Jesus, His Living Word and Presence within me.

When I respond to His Presence with me…no more will I let sin reign, no more will I find comfort and joy in shopping, spending or even scrimping.

I will live, each moment of my days encompassed and enveloped in the Presence of the One Who has promised that He is more than enough, that He will supply all my needs according to His riches in glory.

So, this new year, before it has even begun, I choose to seek the glory of God, to chase after Him and to set myself securely upon my Father’s lap.

I will know beyond a shadow of a doubt that my God is more than enough for me.  And I have learned that when their is repentance on my part, there is the promise of redemption on God’s part.

 

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