Today I am linking up with Dawn at Random Journal Day. I just happen to be the featured random journal keeper too!
In all seriousness, I have found myself amazed this morning as I picked up random journals, opened them up to random pages and found this:
This first picture is when I once again became serious about learning to listen for the voice of the Holy Spirit. Each of these journal pages has a Scripture and I remember thinking, ‘if the Word of God is alive and active, continually speaking to me, then I will wait and write what the Word of God speaks to my heart. Nothing from my head will go on these pages, nothing I may have conjured up myself.’ I look at them today and marvel at how the Lord encouraged me even then. He says, in case you cannot see it, ‘Your eyes are open, your ears can hear.’ This was long before I knew I had an issue with my hearing! Years ago I threw out journals written in beautiful calligraphy, because in a time of finding my way through the maze of life I got discouraged and chucked them, dismissing the very idea that the words could have come from the heart of God.
My second photo is the first journal I randomly opened this morning ~ and yes, much to my shock it opened up to this same date three years ago. This would have been one month before we learned that my husband would be diagnosed with prostate cancer, one month before the suicide death of our son. God was preparing me for what would become the biggest fight of our lives thus far. As of this date He has won!
Please read Sought Out. also written at this time. Here you will hear His heart expressed, how He feels about you and I. His words carried me, continue to carry me and I pray they resonate deep within your hearts as well. I had been sitting on the loveseat thinking about going to the pool, not being very serious about my quiet time as the water seemed to call my name. Little did I know, I was about to be immersed in the Living Water that would have a lasting impact upon my heart.
My third photo is once again from a time in February, two years ago. I was thinking about when God wants to birth something new in our lives, often it is birthed as a result of us holding onto His Promise, guarding our hearts so nothing can steal the promise. That morning He showed me how all that is required of us is to believe. Simply believe.
The Word doesn’t say, ‘hang on with all your might and believe, believe as hard as you can as much as you can.’ It simply says, ‘Believe‘. Believe the Holy Spirit has come upon me. Believe the power of the Holy Spirit is hovering over me. Believe the Holy Spirit is protecting the presence of the seed of the spirit within me.
I ended that day with these words ‘ In my shame, Father, its hard to draw close to You. Father would You unlock me from the prison of shame? I know You have things, plans all prepared for me, for Bruce and me to walk in. I need to walk free from the tangled grip of my flesh nature. I don’t want to be disqualified because of my choices. I know You want me to take my position. In my weakness, I receive Your strength. The seed of Your spirit has come into me and I am Your own. Chosen. Beloved.
Lord, I receive the fullness of Christ, fully formed grace ~ enough ~ sufficient for my every need.
I believe You are at work in me. You have moved in and You are moving about in my heart. Even though all I can see and feel right now are my weaknesses and shortcomings, Your are perfecting all those things that concern me
I believe Your grace and strength are shaping me, perfecting me, forming the fullness of Christ within.
I believe Lord Jesus, I yield and receive You.
I am listening for Your heart. Word of God speak.